It’s been a few hours. I believe I am calm enough to process now…
COVID-19 has dominated the early part of 2020. Social distancing, the call to action, precautions to be taken, all to help stay ahead of the curve. Well, 2020 (or the higher powers in our lives, my life) decided to throw another curve ball.
This morning Northern Utah received a wake-up call, literally. Like an alarm clock at 07:09 local time, a 5.7 earthquake rocked the Salt Lake Valley. I live approximately 36 miles to the north of the epicenter. We didn’t experience damage of any sort up this way, but we definitely felt the shift. It was a moderate quake, thankfully, nothing worse.
Here’s a description of the events as they unfolded for me, from my point of view:
I had just started to doze off, not yet fully awake, when I heard a loud boom. The sound penetrated the very foundation of our home, like a bomb being dropped nearby. My son later described it better than I could have – like an exceptionally deep crack of thunder. That was what woke me, causing me to jolt out of bed.
Then the shaking began. The room swayed back and forth. The home felt unsettled, groaning its displeasure at the wake-up call. It lasted short, 15 seconds or so. My son had burst out of his bedroom during the course of the shaking and swaying. I took him in my arms and we dropped to the ground in the hallway. Shortly after, I checked on my daughter who had slid under her bed with our dog. I was impressed and grateful for her quick thinking. My oldest daughter met us upstairs within moments.
As all of this unfolded, my heart raced. At first I was frantic but, recognizing the need for a calm head, I collected myself and checked on my priorities – my children. My heart remained in an anxious state for a couple hours following the event.
I’m ok, and I don’t mean physically. All is well here. My mind, my heart, that’s where I think I’m ok. I keep clinging to some sense of assuredness. My mind has not been entirely stable for some time, which only makes this worse. I’m anxious, very very much. I have kept it [controlled] through this and have not let on to others that this has affected me at all. However, I have at least found a sense of temporary peace.
This has been another event that feeds my darkest thoughts. I’ve been in darker places more than normal recently, gone places I have never gone. I’m alright, though.
This event today, shook me to my very core. That may well be a good thing, but it also feeds into the more vulnerable inward parts of me.
Love those around you. Even in this time of social distancing and uncertainty, reach out and love. I heard a phrase from one of the local mayors – ‘Practice social distancing, but also social grace.’ (paraphrased)
Remember, there are many who struggle internally. They may not show it, they may not even say anything. Often they may feel like a burden or think others will not understand. Unfortunately, sometimes both are actually the case. I hope not. They put on a happy face, let the distractions of everyday life help them cope, while suffering in silence. Sometimes they even suffer when standing in proximity to you or while enjoying your company. Tell them how much you love them and that they matter. Don’t let them suffer in silence, isolated from all else.
Today’s events… I’m glad to still be alive… I’m glad my family is safe…
Not everyone is so lucky. Reach out. Touch someone. Do a good service for those around you. Love.