Of late I can attest
When caught inside my mind
I’ve found a moment filled with truth
An origin of light
A day so long ago
Yet clear as yesterday
That moment when I walked with Him
He held me while I prayed
That overwhelming feeling
The closest to heav’n I’ve been
He sat with me, He talked with me
I felt such warmth within
We sat there side by side
We talked as if face to face
The brightness of celestial glory
Emanated from that place
Sweet moment I embrace
These thoughts have calmed my soul
Those memories of long ago
Make me feel quite whole
His temple is my home
Full of eternal grace
The closest to his kingdom on earth
I truly love that place
And so when I am lost
When trapped inside my head
I keep the memory close to me
To chase away the dread
© Alan Zaugg 2020
I wrote this a couple of months ago. The context involved some cherished recent moments where I recalled an event 26 years ago, March. The rhyme is simple and basic, nothing exciting. It’s the meaning that I hold close. I’m religious, spiritual to my core. I’ve had incredible experiences in my life that have bolstered that spirituality. When times are difficult for me to navigate, I’ve found solace in some of these experiences and the very personal real relationship I have with Him (God).
I still find myself falling back into dark moments, some that set me on a downward spiral toward my demise. Every once in a while, I’m reminded of the simple truths that I can hold on to.
I’m not mentally whole. Of this I can attest. I’m a wreck and acknowledge the illness I struggle with. I just grasp hold of any positive influences I can call upon to see me through my darkest days and nights.
Help me to be who you want me to be
I fight with my demons, please set me free
Your lighthouse sheds its light ‘cross the sea
Give me the strength to endure patiently
Divinity shines like a candle in me
I feel its warm glow fill me with peace
Instill your vast knowledge and let me see
Perhaps there’s some meaning to how life should be
I live and I learn, I try faithfully
To meet opposition along this journey
With each lesson learned I’m drawn unto thee
T’ward mansions above, with you I may be
No more to dwell in dark misery
Forever and ever, sweet serenity
© Alan Zaugg 2020
Random thought #2187
Disclaimer: I am religious and believe in God. I realize not everyone who reads this does. However, I believe we all have a higher power or something we hold to that resonates in our lives like this experience with me.
I was recently asked by someone to take a break from writing. There was some anger from me, some push back. I was frustrated. Writing was cathartic for me, a form of therapy. Plus, I love telling stories and writing poetry. It resonates with me and also provides a temporary escape. As you can imagine, I accepted the request begrudgingly.
I couldn’t understand why He (God) would ask me to give up something so special to me.
Fast forward to last evening. I was at a meeting, and someone said something that was an answer. They said that sometimes we need to “take a break from (or remove) distractions and focus on Him.”
I pondered on that phrase for the rest of the night and into today.
Sometimes we’re asked to do things we don’t want to do. Sometimes, we hear a little voice or feel a prompting we don’t understand. Sometimes we only need to look, listen, ponder and just do. Perhaps the reason will be revealed to us later and we’ll be the better for it.
That’s my random thought for today.