It’s been a bit since I dropped in. Yes, I did post something 10 days ago. That was the first time in nearly three weeks and here we are.
The last couple months have been difficult on me. On all of us. Some have handled it better than others, but these have been trying times for all. Look, I won’t mince words. I’ve been in a dark place, my own mind. It hasn’t been good. I’m still here. I haven’t given up, although I’ve wanted to and considered things I shouldn’t even give credence to.
In dark times, we need some positive light to hold on to. I need it. So I’ll drop some here. I hope that by writing it down, maybe it’ll reinforce my weakened state. Then there’s the writing it down as part of cleaning out the catacombs of my brain. Perhaps it will spark motivation in you, the reader, to find something positive in your life.
Thinking… Give me a minute… Yeah, I’m considering it all as I write this. What’s a positive?
First, the most recent. I accepted a promotion at work. Something I’ve waited for for some time now. The best part, I remain right where I am. Oh and the pay is pretty good too. I will continue doing what I do on the service desk I’ve spent the last decade plus. I’ll take on more responsibility. In the end, I feel vindicated. No, that’s not the right word. I feel accomplished, rewarded for my patience and long-suffering.
Second, I’ve dropped below the 200 lb mark for the first time in 7 years (shhh, it’s a secret I’ve chosen not to speak aloud to anyone). Down near 30 lbs. That said, my body is falling apart so-to-speak. I mean I am nearing a half century. My knee(s) are not good, my shoulder… wait… this is supposed to be about the positives.
Third: I’ve almost finished landscaping the backyard (I may post pictures later). It’s been a project. I’ve all but immersed myself in it the last couple weeks which actually has provided a form of coping for me.
Fourth: I don’t know. We’ll stop at three for now. I hope there will be more to come.
What’s a positive for you? It’s a deep thinking, introspective question more than a “please respond in the comments below” question. Only you know the answer to that question.
For now, I’m content. The same word I’ve used off and on for a few months now – STABLE.
Talk to you all soon.
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