This is the first of two posts. Updates if you will
First, the vulnerable truth.
I had thoughts again. Last Saturday night. I weighed my life, considered my options, and knew what I want.
I was on my way home from my fiancee’s house. It had been a rough day. I won’t bore you with details…
Before I say this next part, let me make it clear – I have a wonderful woman in my life. She’s everything I want and need in my life. She’s everything He wants for me.
No issues with her whatsoever.
Now that I’ve said that…
On my way home that night, I considered driving off the overpass of the highway I was on. It was a very clear and concise thought. Then, thoughts of my son and daughters, but especially my son, flooded my mind. Also my love. I think of her every day. She is constantly on my mind.
I made a choice to live.
I am struggling with finances, drowning. I see no end and no relief. I hope I don’t lose my house. However, I have to control what I can control.
I wanted to die, but I want to live. Life is precious. My family needs me. My fiancee needs me.
I’m not going anywhere. Doesn’t mean I won’t weigh my options.
I choose, right now, to live.